Wednesday Entry

Finals are just around the corner and I am going to start one of my final paper this Saturday.

How stressful that is? Ugh ><

Anyway, I am quiet delightful today because I think 'he' finally told me about his e-x. Even though I felt a bit annoyed that he actually told me about his e-x in front of me -_- but at the same time, I felt secure and I won't need to question that much from him anymore.

He also told me about he meeting 'not intelligent' girls in 'the' app which makes me happy for some reason. hahaha.

I know it is wrong and I'm feeling very wrong now actually that I actually want him to be mine, but I just can't because there's something in me telling me that he's just wasn't ready for love yet.

Yes. He said he'll take care of the girl and give her everything only if he loves her and talk to her everyday. Yeah. That's normal. But, this is what every girl wants. To make them feel wanted. The feeling of being loved and being special in someone's mind. 

I have asked him quiet the same thing too but in a different way. Since he said he does not have feelings for his e-x now, and I asked him whether would he goes back to his e-x and start a new love life if his e-x ask him to, he said, "if i love her again? i don't know" "i would hesitate 'cause i know how she is"

"So, does that means you're not ready for someone new?"

"If I don't love anybody I won't have girlfriend"

"So it's all about girlfriend?"

Can you see why I said he's not ready yet? 

Anyway, that's all for the entry today. I am going to edit a bit more on my assignment.

Muah Muah~