Wednesday Entry

Finals are just around the corner and I am going to start one of my final paper this Saturday.

How stressful that is? Ugh ><

Anyway, I am quiet delightful today because I think 'he' finally told me about his e-x. Even though I felt a bit annoyed that he actually told me about his e-x in front of me -_- but at the same time, I felt secure and I won't need to question that much from him anymore.

He also told me about he meeting 'not intelligent' girls in 'the' app which makes me happy for some reason. hahaha.

I know it is wrong and I'm feeling very wrong now actually that I actually want him to be mine, but I just can't because there's something in me telling me that he's just wasn't ready for love yet.

Yes. He said he'll take care of the girl and give her everything only if he loves her and talk to her everyday. Yeah. That's normal. But, this is what every girl wants. To make them feel wanted. The feeling of being loved and being special in someone's mind. 

I have asked him quiet the same thing too but in a different way. Since he said he does not have feelings for his e-x now, and I asked him whether would he goes back to his e-x and start a new love life if his e-x ask him to, he said, "if i love her again? i don't know" "i would hesitate 'cause i know how she is"

"So, does that means you're not ready for someone new?"

"If I don't love anybody I won't have girlfriend"

"So it's all about girlfriend?"

Can you see why I said he's not ready yet? 

Anyway, that's all for the entry today. I am going to edit a bit more on my assignment.

Muah Muah~

You thought

Have you ever feel like where you're really near to something you think you can get, but in the end, you're just wrong. You're not even as important as they are to you.

You thought, finally there is someone who actually cares about you and make effort to talk to you every single day. And you pretty think that they really mean it, but they actually don't. 

You thought, what you always talk with them are the things that he wanted, but sadly no. They are actually wanting something more than that. Something that you don't even know what it is. But what you're really sure is, someone out there is trying really hard to impress them when you are not looking. 

This is so sad. I can't even express my whole feelings. 

Currently...

Currently listening to songs that can heal my soul

ugh

maybe I'm just to tired

Hmm

But, Parachute - Kiss Me Slowly is really a nice song.. haha I love this type of song

And I wouldn't mind by He is We is totally my type too!

Gawshh

Waiiiiiii

I don't understand this...

I actually trying to be nice here and showing him that I actually care

but, he actually ignored that..

and when I try to see his last online on an app called meowchat and surprise surprise! --- HE'S ONLINE!

...and I actually waited for 16 minutes his online: NOW become 1 minute ago

Then, a message from him came saying," Oh" "Sorry i didnt see"

So, i just say, "it's okay" "nothing important too" "Hah"

After 21 minutes later then he said, "It is"

Oh, just shut that bullshit mouth of yours!

If it's important, there are no "21 minutes", no "waiting until your meow online time become 1 minute ago", no "me keep on staring at my screen just to see if you're online" and yeah, nothing!

Whatever..

Even my daily horoscope saying that I have super bad mood today!

Why do you have to be so frickin trueeeee ugghhhhh

My Organisational Behaviour's assignment is not even finished yet..

Shoes.... -.-