Unbelievable!

Gaaah! 

What's wrong if I'm texting him?

He's just a friend of mine!

Well, he's more than a friend, but less than a lover.

He's like my best guy friend!

He's kind of irritating and annoying to me, but I'm just so used to it when he's around.

However, my mom is suspecting me to have feelings for him! 

"I asked your friend, K, about you just now,"

"So?" feeling annoyed when my mom started to ask about me from my friends. 

"I don't know if she's telling the truth or what, but she told me that you have feelings for 'L',"

I jumped off from my bed as I stood up and went straight to where my mom was sitting.

"WHEN???" I was really shocked that I almost screamed when I asked her about when she asked my friend K about it.

"Just now. At the shop. She told me that you have feelings for L, but when you found out that your friend, 'I', have feelings for him too, you let her,"

I was really shocked when  I heard that.

Well, it's true that me and 'L' always text to each other, but I don't have a romantic feelings towards him.

For me, he's just a bro that I can't live without.

And, I love him like my own brother.

I'm harsh when I talk with him, but actually, behind all of those harshness I felt bad for him.

Hmm...

It's 1.25am now, I wanna sleep, but this place is kind of a stranger for me. 

I really need my bed now.

I'm..........confused

Is it normal if everything I do will reminds me of him?

I think I'm going crazy!

No matter what I do, like, when I'm listening to a love song, it'll reminds me of him.

When I'm watching a drama, it'll reminds me of him.

What's so interesting about this guy?

Everyone is telling me to forget about my feelings upon him.

"He's a jerk!"

"He's bad for you!!!"

"Why would you like him?"

"You like him??????"

"He's like, the most horrible person I have ever met!"

I keep on hearing those, but the more I heard about it, the more I missed him.

I've tried to move on, but I can't forget him!

I was really hurt that day when I wished him 'Happy Easter Day', he didn't wished me back.

I don't know what crossed his mind.

Maybe, he already got someone in his head.

I know.

I'm no match for those pretty girls out there.

I'm just a simple girl with an extraordinary attitude (It is how I described myself though).

I really wish, one day, I will sit next to him again in class.

I really miss spending times with him in class.

I really love talking with him.

I never get bored.

Although that time, my feelings were for somebody else, but he was like my best buddy!

Why?!!

Why would I fall for him?

Is it because of his manly face?

Or his toned up body?

Or maybe his gentleness?

I don't know!

I just, love him because of him.

I've tried to like other guy, but I can't find a guy who is better than him.

Why I'm feeling this way?

How I wish one day he knows what I feel for him and he'll feel the same way for me too.

Hmm...

(Sigh)

Night~

What if,...Your Crush Texts You First

Okay, I was really really busy these days, but on Monday this week, I got shocked.

Why?

Haha, I received a text from my crush!

Yay!

I bumped into him last Thursday and I don't know why I was that happy and excited, but I'm trying to control it in front of him and his sister.

I was too nervous that I forgot to greet his sister.

That's really embarrassing!

Gahhh ><

However, the good part was, he greeted me and my mom goodbye when he and his sister finished eating and made their way out to the exit.

Oh my feelssssssssss.........

Okay, end of that.

This Monday, to be specific, on Monday night, suddenly I got a text from him.

I thought I was dreaming when I saw his text all of a sudden.

I blinked my eyes thrice or four times then I realised that it was a new text from him and I can't believe that he was the one to text me first!

He started the conversation by typing out my nickname "az" -.-

I thought he was about to question me about college entrance or whatsoever that is related to a boring topic which we always ask others recently :)

Instead, he asked me the TITLE of the song that I sent 500centuries ago to him -.- (the song is Miracles in December by EXO Chinese Ver)

Well, to be honest, I sent that song because I think that the song suited him and it was actually the story of his life.

I want him to regret on what he has done.

I know this sounds crazy, although he was just my crush, but I love him very much and I care for him!

It hurts me so much when I wanted to help him during SPM, he questioned me back on what I gave him.

After that, I don't think I deserve to help him anymore.

It hurts me even worse when he coupled with another girl.

Yes, I did wished him all the best and good luck with that girl, but I just can't let myself sleep for 3 nights!

The impact!!! >,<

So stressful.

However, I don't get it why I suddenly got so happy and excited that I can't sleep the whole night on the day he texted me for such a long 'decade' of time!

Yes, I replied him in cold intonation, but actually, I screamed even when I text! haha

But, then, I realised, he's the only person that can make me happy and make me sad.

Sad means for me is when I can't sleep because too much thinking about him.

Happy means for me is when I can't sleep because too much thinking about him.

*Tongued*

Hahahaha

The reason I'm sad and happy are all because of his existence and presence.


Btw, it's 1++am already and I'm very sleepy. Going to sleep now. Bye.

And wish me luck/pray for me so that I can be accepted in many Universities and Colleges.

Amen.

I just wanna know you

Just finished chatting with the person that I missed a lot. 

I don't get it. 

I don't have feelings for him, but every time I chat with him, he sounds welcoming.

Seriously, I wanna meet him again.

My friend told me that she has a crush on him, there's suddenly a big lump in my throat.

Is it because I'm too close with him that I am very used to how he treats me.

Miss his presence is the worst I ever felt.

He's the first guy friend that I had ever felt this way.

By the way, I am listening to Taylor swift's new song, Everything Has Changed. 

Haha, seriously, I love this song.

It made me missed him more.

Hmm, he's better than my crush.

He has no ego in him when he's texting with a girl.

Well, my crush got very cold with me when we're texting.

I don't get it.

Is it because he got annoyed with me or is it that's the way he is when he texts someone?

Anyways, I'm going to bed now.

For the first time, in this year 2014, I updated back my blog. (laughs)

I think the way I write also improves a lot.

Well, maturity hits me.

Haha.

K night bloggers~