........................I never heard silence quiet this loud~ Okay, that's only the intro.. I'm actually writing this because I want to write all my feelings out because I think my brain is going to explode just because of a guy..
Okay, here's the story, I like this guy since last year because I think he's awesome. I'm embarrassed to tell anyone that I'm actually having a crush on that guy. I started to fall for him in the middle of the year where he was seated beside me. He's not that handsome, but whenever I'm talking with him, I can feel my voice was shaking. I don't understand how can that happened!
One day, I was asking him to teach me 'KH', then my friends were calling my name and I don't even heard my name was called. My focus only to him and I can't even hear any voices instead of his. Then, suddenly, one of my friend stood up and shout, "You like him?!! If you like him, then go and be his friend. Be our friend no more! Hmmph!" Then, I was like,.... =.=' "What?!! I don't even like him! I was just asking him to......" "To what? You actually like him, right? Yes, we understand! (That guy's name), (my name) likes you! Do you hear me? She likes you!"
I still remember everything happened to me and him. All of them. Nothing's excluded..
This year, I lied to myself that I like his brother, but actually NO. I only respect his brother as my senior. I don't even have the intention to date him or something since his brother is the 'head prefect'. But, one thing that I realized that, he started to notice that my friends were actually combining my name with him. but, he doesn't even bother about it. Our combination of name will be >>> Sonda. Weird, right? If my combination with his brother's name will be >>> Londa. Really strange! What I mean is, DAMN IT! So strange, man! It doesn't even nice to be heard! If anybody heard that, I bet they already know whom I like. Sheeeez~ But, who cares? I won't even date them! :P
Okay, that's all for today, I still have to study my Additional Mathematics, Chemistry, Biology and Physics. The most difficult subjects are Add. Math and Biology. Damn! I'm really a slow-learner!
P.S. : I will do anything just to prove that I'm not a failure and I hope someday, you can see me success and lead a great life. I also want to prove to you that the girl you are dating now is worthless. You trust me? *tch~